Beckham Final Update

My beautiful boy Beckham couldn't recover from his injury. He was a mere 6 months old, we discovered he had a shattered hip socket which was also creating a plethora of other major problems with would have put him through multiple surgeries on all legs and he would still have been in a lot of pain. His quality of life would have been zero. So with a broken 💔  the best thing for him was to be humanely euthanized.  The specialist took care of this foe me as I just couldn't do it. His head was in my lap and I was stroking his head and cheek as he took his last breath.  Before sedation he rested his head in my arms with all his head weight and I honestly felt his love, appreciation and  a thank you for letting him go. I actually felt it. It was amazing as well as heartbreaking all at the same time. I think he only kept going because he knew I loved him so much. I desperately wanted to save him. We said our goodbyes, I got braided tail hair and some mane hair and let him go. The gift of being an empath often times is not a gift at all. 

He was my special boy. 

Always in my heart Beckham. Rest easy, run through the sky, and graze in forever green pastures. 

Love always your human mom, you were an exceptional Champagne colt. 

More on Beckham

Beck has his good days and his bad days. The bad days bother me really bad, more than they bother him I think. I wish I had access to a swim pool for horses because I think it would help him. Might look to see if there is any available in the area but I doubt it. I just can't help think it would help him tremendously.  Allow him to move easier and strengthen his legs and help his back. 

*****this written before his appointment with his specialist ******** SEE UPDATE