Tuesday I opted not to take a shift at work because it was my client that they took from me and gave to someone else. I was dependable, the new person is not. Has not made her shift for a out 3 times now. Don't call me to do the job you took away from me. I told them I'd pass on taking that shift.
So instead of working I decided I'd take the day to do what I wanted. I rode my ole faithful horse Trick and galloped and he was so happy to be out riding. I felt free for the first time since my accident.
I also rode this beautiful hunk of a horse for about an hour. It was so nice. All we did was walk because he is green and I can't take another fall because of the accident on October 12, 2024. My doctor has ok'd me riding , she knows that I will be careful.
My beautiful dream that finally came true and it was my knight in shining Armour that made it all possible when we bought this place 13 years ago because it was perfect and set up already for my dream. This is half the horses I/we have. In total I have 18. I love and adore each and every one of them.
Now for the bad news that I got today.
I had another MRI last week because of the accident. It only took 7 months of fighting insurance to get it done. I couldn't get any answers from the ortho doctor on results so I went to my primary to get real answers. The ortho doctor would not make the referral so as usual my primary is finding me a good neuro to refer me to.
She compared my first mri to the recent one and found that not only is my bulging disk worse, it is pushing on my spinal cord and I have bone spurs from the arthritis that are poking my nerves.
Surgery to do a laminectomy is eminent.
Without it things will only get worse and she said in 10 years....... I said it won't take 10 years, it will be a lot sooner than that.
So for now I can ride but easily. It doesn't hurt when I ride oddly enough. We talked about that too. I ride in my own arena and I don't push issues with the green horses. A lot of times I will just play with them from the ground.
I have to admit the world that galloping took me to yesterday riding Trick was a peaceful one. It felt so great. It was a release. I can train on one and then go ride Trick for the freedom and the calm it creates. It's another world where everything else in life just goes away for a while. No one but another die hard equestrian would even come close to understanding this concept.
My horses are my asylum.
There is only one man to thank for my dream and that is my wonderful husband. He made my dreams come true. He has sacrificed so much for me and put up with so much from me. He knows I'm tired but I want to get well and he steps up to help with chores. If he knows I'm riding and I sneak off to do it sometimes, he will come out and piddle around and watch.
He knows it changes me, puts me in such a good place. He truly was, is and always will be the one for me for many more reasons than just making my dreams co e true. He is a real man who knows how to stand by his woman, be gentle, be supportive.
I love you my one and only Wesley.
