Today 35 years ago

Well Mark, it was 35 years ago today we lost you......
I remember getting the phone call from someone very close to me. I was 8 months pregnant with my son. We had a wonderful conversation on the phone in the days before it happened.  You were 24 years young and shouldn't be gone.
I remember when you'd sit outside my apartment in the parking lot watching over me. I didn't know you were there until someone told me and you'd leave as soon as they got home. I wish I had known, I would have come out to talk to you.
I was in such shock when I got the phone call 6 years later. I called your mom, she asked me to come back for the funeral, but I could not and you know why. You had told me that we (me and the kids) could come back, you even said you had nothing to offer but you'd be happy for us to be together again.
I know you watch over me. Lately memories locked away have come back like you picking me up from the bus stop when I could have easily walked, it wasn't far. I remember our argument in the k-mart parking lot one evening. I remember you showing up at my apartment late at night and curling up in bed just to sleep.
You were my first real love and as I go through today living the life I have, loving the man that has been there for me for the last 7 years, I will still carry you in my heart and remember everything about you. I got pictures of your grave Friday along with your mom and dads. My loved one put flowers on your headstone for me. I'd be there today if I could to tell you privately everything that is in the part of my heart that you always occupy and always will. One day I will see you again.
I loved you then, now and always.
Rest in peace and be my guardian angel always.