September 5 had major back surgery. I've been home 3 days from the hospital. Today I've been up all morning but starting to want to take my brace off and laying down for a nap. Can only be up for short time. I guess it's just healing. Pick up where I left off:
I still get very tired. It been a little over 2 weeks. Still have pain but it's surgical pain. The other pain was fixed when they fused my spine. That I am grateful for bit let me express to you if I can the searing pain that hits you like a train when you have a muscle spasm. Dear Lord it puts me on the ground almost. I know there will be no riding for a good while which kills my soul. I can't move fast so no working with the babies for a while. I really want to work with Luke, Magic and just ride Wrangler around the arena. Feeding is extremely hard for me.
I really need to find someone to float Pera's and Rocky's teeth. I can keep weight on them. I so badly want to get Luke gelded but off work means no paycheck. I'm off at least 6 or 7 weeks. Honestly I'm going to try and get on disability. I'm just done with working. I'd rather work around here. I'm honestly thinking I may have to go to PT to get my strength back. I know I'm cranky and being a big baby but I'm trying not to be. I don't feel well, I hurt almost everywhere and in places I never thought I would. Feels like they dug around in all my guts along with my back. If I could afford a massage therapist I'd go have one. I think it would help.
I just want to feel normal again. It's been so long since I've felt "normal" I'm not sure what normal is. I wish xanax had a pain killer in it. Valium they gave me is a muscle relaxer, who knew? It's in the same class as xanax.
Today is the 22nd of September and we put round bale out for the small pasture horses and the 4 together will get one put out Wednesday or Thursday before Wes goes for paintball because I can't pitch fork hay.
I want to bring in Royal and Ice. The rest of the ones out in the big pasture I could and would sell.
This may be the pain talking.
While Wes is gone, I will stay in bed except to feed the entire weekend. It's hard to move correctly without thinking about it.
Magic has grown and is so beautiful. Riot has decided he belongs to Wes, Wrangler, Luke, Dakota, and Frankie are mine. I think Magic belongs to whomever. She is a wonderful filly. She and Luke are 2 yrs old so they will be a year behind on getting started riding because of my surgery.
Oh cleaned out some of my friends list, people I know that were on there to spy. Had enough.