Healing....sort of

Well I've had like 3 good days with my back. Incisions are healed. The insides are the issue, still hurts. Stayed in bed all day yesterday because I could,  woke up ready to face the day, picked up in the house just a little, without my brace, mistake.  

I went out in front yard with the puppies and watched them run around having fun. A guy on a bicycle rode by, I guess he's part of the gravel grinders race which I suppose is coming up. The chihuahuas barked, he just grinned. Lol. Gully was on the porch barking.  

My back is killing me now. Took my meds which I'm trying not to do plus 1000 mg Tylenol per my nurse. It's the nerve pain. My spine is actually ok since he fused it. 

I'm 2 weeks and 2 days out of surgery so I guess I'm doing pretty good. I'm just not one to be patient.  

I don't want to ride yet, it doesn't feel well enough to do that. I guess I really do want to but will follow my gut which says DO NOT DO THAT. 

I hate these bad days. 

I feel like I should be further along in healing but I'm on track. I'm use to being younger and healing faster. I hate that Wes has to do everything for me. I'm use to doing things on my own. 

I do not want to go back to work. 

I already got on medicaid now got to get on disability.  I've been fighting all I have to fight for to long. I just want to be home with Wes and and animals and the house, fix up the house, a place for the dogs and just be normal. I have certain horses I want to keep and others I would sell,  maybe. I mean whatever I have to do. 

I'm ready for Wes and I to just be home, together and do things together now that I will be healed up. Here is my little buddy Gizmo staying by my side yesterday.