My Fur Weirdos

Seriously this is an example of my odd weirdo's.

This is Ezra chillin......

This is Sebastian  in his favorite place.  The bird doesn't seem to care. He is an odd cat. 

His Name Shall Be

His name shall be:

                 Phoenix

Pics From Yesterday

Beautiful mom is a Percheron 

Peek a boo

Beautiful sire Hotshot Ashwood 

Time for some R & R

This colt is such a looker!

Beyond Thrilled

I am beyond thrilled to welcome our newest and last addition to our family

He was born yesterday 7/28/2019. He will be with his mom until weaning obviously,  I don't own the mare or the stallion. 

He will probably join us around November. 

He is out of Hotshot Ashwood and a percheron paint mare. 

I love his markings! 

He will be gelded as a yearling. 

Tamaskan Dog Breed

Turns out there is a recognized breed for my dog. As you can read from below they are a mixture carefully bred to look like a wolfdog but in reality just actually a dog. Not a wolfdog.  They are Siberian husky, Alaskan Malamute and shepherd. I also read they are a combination of 5 breeds that mske up the Tamaskan. Yes folks a mutt or znother designer breed, whatever you want to call it, I don't care. Mine is an absolute doll so bonded to our family as well as the other dogs from chihuahua to great pyrenees. It's nice to know it's an actual breed because people saying he looks like a wolf gets old. They have wonderful temperaments and are very intelligent.  Anyway, I think he is the best dog I've ever had.  So look them up, pictures are incredible and puppy pictures of Dakota and pics of now look like they used him as z model. Highly recommend if you want a BIG dog that resembles a wolfdog.  I happen to have a male and he is very big so these are not a dog for everyone because of their size. I wouldn't have it any other way though. He is a hpuse dog, sits, lays down, shakes with his paw as well as other tricks. Learned them quick too. Super smart. Easily trained. .ine is 8 months old and I've never had a dog that learned so fast. I'd love to get another. 

The Joys of Miniatures

Todays lesson 3 million 4 67thousand 287: miniature horses while entertaining and so much fun are entirely to smart.  Now for the visual, conservation dept pickup pulls into driveway, honks horn because, face it, my 4 big outside dogs are very intimidating so I go out to see what was going on all the while screaming at the dogs to leave the poor woman alone. She was very sweet telling me the horses were out, I gave her the look of and said " is it the mini's  

"? She chuckled and said yes. I thanked her very much and said well thank god all I have to do is call them and sure enough I hollered "babies where are you, come on" and down the outside of the fence, looking for the way back in, here the 4 came running because lets face it, moms voi e means feedinf time. Thank goodness they are basically trained to come when I call, go figure. So that was easy enough. It's funny to see 4 little things running their little hooves off in grass taller than them hraded straight for you ffom a field away.  It was cute, can't help but giggle and think what cuties. So into the yard they went, the fence/ gate was laid over and tiny twister jumped the entire width of the gate back into their temp enclosure where I had them grazing. Still chuckling while trying to be mad, but its impossible. Then there is the one leader of mischief named BB. Wouldn't trade her for the world but she is leader of the pack decides well I'm not exactly ready yet so one more run to the next field. So I'm corraling the 3 while Wes strolls down the gravel to call BB the Queen of, Well you fill in the blank, and no rope but she decides ok I'll walk home with dad and I meet them with a rope. So now ms trouble maker is caught and now put up. What is so enjoyable about my trouble makers? I have no idea but boy are they entertaining and smart. They all have such different personalities. All the while the dogs are trying to help which btw is no help at all really, but it's the effort that counts I suppose. So now everyone is in the dry lot now, mad of course but safe and sound. The r azad in loosened the tpost by the panel and BB knows exactly how to manipulate the fence to get it down. Brat child. But she's my girl. 

Thank goodness they are trained to come when I call. It's really hard to find mini's in grass taller than they are. I love my little turd ponies, I get so much enjoyment out of them, perhaps in my older age a bit more than the big horses. Thry keep me on my toes for sure. But they are so adorable.  Who thought they'd be so much fun but I'm apparently hooked on them. Think I need to let them have the smaller pasture. They have so much fun. The 2 rescues, Honey and Alyssa were still in the dry lot to finish their breakfast so only had to contend with my 4 smaller ones.  (Thank goodness)

Thanks Tammy for being so gracious to stop and let me know. I don't even panic anymore, I just go call "babies"! I have the greatest ones on earth but I may be partial. Lol. She should have watched. She would have been surprised.  

The rescues, Honey and Alyssa are doing great. Gaining weight and loveable. Alyssa is still a little standoffish but is coming around and follows Honey everywhere. So I let her do it in her own good time which is working. I've gotten attached to the both of those old girls. Honey just wants love and Alyssa is just not sure yet but that's ok. I'm glad my gut told me to take them. No one wanted them because of their age but their mistake because they turned down a couple of real sweethearts. They are doing great.  

That was my excitement for the day. Tomorrow retink fence area for grazing and playing. Might have a easy solution for them, we'll see how it works out.

Rescue Mini's

Here are 2 rescue ponies a friend of mine picked up and tried to find a new home for. They still had winter hair so their body condition was hidden but they were in pretty rough shape.  Thank goodness she got them in time. One is 29 years old, the other is 19 years old and they use to pull a little Budweiser wagon as a team. Well no one wanted them so I had to go pick up my gelding anyway so I brought them home to live here. Here are pictures I took this morning after having them on senior feed for a couple weeks. They have improved a lot and are doing well. The 19 year old is getting a lot more friendly, she was super shy and the 29 year old loves attention. They continue  to improve and my intention was to find them a good retirement home, however, I have grown very fond of the girls and I think they will just be staying here with us. When they are back at full weight I will probably harness them up and take them on little outings with the pony cart. Maybe a parade on occasion or just a little jaunt down the road. We shall see. They are good girls. 

For My Own Benefit

This entry is for my own benefit and no one elses so read it or not. My biological family no longer exists with the exception of my daughter and my granddaughter and my real father.  My biological mother doesn't exist in my life and while your first thought might be I'm disrespectful I'll tell you I have shown her respect up until we stopped speaking. Her twin sister, my aunt, has in her infinite wisdom decided to be the self appointed informant regarding my life. I discovered that there was a child before me that my mother basically just threw away. Well here is a concept since I was also conceived out of wedlock, how about you shouldn't have been a whore! I've cut all ties with all of my mother's side of the family. My life is only open to whom I choose for it to be. I pick my own family. The others are toxic and should wear warning labels.  They are also very fake. Seriously I've been done for a long time but it was just confirmed what I thought and that was the informant.  Just so done. So leave all the messages you want, they will go unanswered. So now what will you report? Nothing! I will never write about any of this again, this is my way of closure and a way to put it away forever. Everything that was ever done to me, I'm release myself from your fuckups that profoundly affected me and my relationships. I grew, you did not, you poisoned my brother and now I have no brother. He is not the golden boy you think he is. I stand on my own without any of you. 

I'm done. Stop lying and telling people I harrassed you till you changed your number, all lies, I can get your number and address off the internet yet I do not want it. I care not to speak with you and I'm done letting you people upset me. I wish you'd given me up for adoption too. You lied to me so much. You're not worth my anger or pity. You are nothing. I have no doubt me or my children never even cross your mind. I hope we don't! You accused me of lying about my daughter and granddaughter,  completely unforgivable.  You don't deserve to know them. Unlike you, I'm there for my daughter and granddaughter. 

I do not know these people any longer. 

Air Out of My Sails

Well yesterday I had an pretty big blow to my self esteem.  

I found something I thought I'd really enjoy doing with my horses, have been pretty excited about it. Then I, by accident, discovered that there is someone else doing the same thing. So with a 3 day event coming I now don't even want to go because I think they will be there. Now I'm not afraid of competition but I think there is more to becoming one with your horse than having someone do all the work and just riding vs doing all the work yourself and earning your spot. Besides that I've been made fun of by those types before who think they are above you and somehow give off the vibe of being superior to everyone else. Now don't get me wrong, having a trainer/coach guiding you is way different than having a trainer/coach that does all the work and just tells you how to ride the horse. I don't want to go into competition to be cut throat, beat my true friends. I want to do it to develop the bond between me and my horse and to become a team that finds fun in what we do. 

Last night I was about in tears over it all but decided that I'm doing this for me, for Royal, for Kai and for whomever I decide to make a part of this journey.  I still don't want to go on the 3 day event for the reason stated above but I've been advised to give it a try and not to let others make me feel small but to go out and enjoy myself and see to it my horse does the same. I can assure you it's easier said than done for sure. I quit competing years ago because there was no sense of team, it was always about knocking the teammates down no matter what or how. This bothers me. I want to congratulate my teammates even if we are competing for the same thing and tell them great job but it seems only a couple people I know think the same way. 

I don't have the nicest rig but I do have nice horses that are happy, not burned out and not completely trained by others. I'd love to be able to have a trainer in my corner, which I actually do, that I feel like I can go to for a lesson or advice at any time really but I feel like I should be able to do it on my own. I've lost a lot of confidence since 2007 but it's much better than it use to be. 

I was told not to give them my power ( the people) but to do it for me and my horse and fuck them. Again, when its rubbed in your face in subtle ways, the look what I have or the non- acknowledgement unless it's the obligatory one that's pretty obvious or the lack of interest after they no longer need you for anything it's rather hard to go and face that. I could go and not have a problem with having fun with my friends without a thought, its the other ones that whisper behind your back but smile at your front that gets to mme. My friends are sincere, the othhers are fake. Anyway just some thoughts and feelings that I've been having.  

Dakota

Doesn't exactly fit in the chair but he's out cold anyway. One of the best dogs I've ever had. I love Malamute, siberian, shepherd mix, also known as a Tamaskan breed and he is soooo soft. 

Hi mom whatcha doin??

He has such a keen sense of smell that when I got Wes home from the emergency room today he got on the bed and carefully sniffed everywhere that doctor's and nurses had touched him. Then he slept on the bed with Wes until I got home from getting meds. He's an amazing animal. He knows Wes is not feeling well and no matter how much he wants to play he has been very gentle with Wes. 

Some Recent Pics

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To this

To this!! She has grown into a beautiful mare and is so smart. I love her.

Chihuahua in an entertainment center shelf. She loves it for some reason.